Because I play videogames and Im a Nerd

So my bro and I always play the same season of NCAA football and I am always Texas and he is Florida. Anyways, it took until the 2013 season for Texas to win a national championship. And how??? With a little help from my friends. Once I recruit players I change their names to one of my friends making the game a little more interesting and exciting. Here are the stats. Nobody should care about this but its fun to see your name and see how well you did.

Starters:

Offense:

QB: Sean Neesley
HB: Angelico Rosales
FB: Heather Murray
LT: Noor Manahan
LG: Larissa Tater
C: Carson Mobley
RG: Cesar Calderon
RT: Drew Carls II
TE: Graeme Drummond
WR: Weston Carls
WR: Matt Doeckel

Offensive subs:
QB: Ricky Arreola
QB: Jeremy Maurer
HB: Santi Calderon
FB: Craig Lauck
WR: Wade Floyd
WR: Travis Weber
WR: Liam Gallagher


Defensive Starters:

DE: Don Nguyen
DT: Brian Truex
DT: Bobby Ausman
DE: Linh Ong
LOLB: Yvan Huerta
MLB: Chris Fulton
ROLB: Stephen Buchanan
CB: David Burns
CB: Travis Henning
FS: Chris Balto
SS: Eric Schoppe

Defensive Subs:

DE: Stephane Targac
MLB: Julian Monceaux III
CB: Jesus Arreola
CB: Allen Henning
CB: Gerardo Fernandez


Special Teams:
Kicker: Kurt Huerta
Punter: Jose De Haro

Passing: Rating Comp Att Yds TD Int Comp%
Nessley 293 396 463 5680 82 18 85
Arreola 139.4 15 23 196 2 3 65
Maurer 0 1 5 11 0 1 20

Rushing: Att Yds TD
Rosales 88 574 7
S. Calderon 4 21 0
Neesley 11 13 3
Murray 2 3 0
Arreola 1 1 1


Receiving: Rec Yds TD
Rosales 111 1630 21
Drummond 94 1336 24
Murray 71 1244 16
W. Carls 43 449 4
Doeckel 32 339 7
Floyd 32 471 8
S. Calderon 15 195 3
T. Web 6 114 1

Awards:
Heisman
1. Neesley
2. Rosales
4. Drummond

Maxwell
1. Neesley
2. Rosales
6. Drummond

Bednarik
1. Burns
4. Schoppe

O'brien
1. Neesley

Walker
2. Rosales

Best TE
1. Drummond
2. Murray

Thorpe
1. Burns
2. Schoppe
3. J. Arreola

Best Punter
1. De Haro

Best Returner
1. Gallagher
2. W. Carls


Nerdy Nerd

(SXSW music is pumping me up!!!)

"Here we fuckin GOOOOOOOOO!!!"- Glasvegas

Dear Prudence...

It has come to my attention that I may be the most prudent person I know. But that may be because I don't know anybody else better than myself. I mean, I try too hard to maintain a clean image. Never act on strong instincts. I think too much of the consequences. If I like a girl it is quite likely that I won't make the first move, not even when I am drunk. I dont go to places where I may not be welcomed. Don't call a person twice, except if its an emergency of course. Too discreet for my boring sake of being.

When I was in HS i fell in love for the first time, I think, beautiful and amazing girl but she had a boyfriend. I NEVER made a strong move on her but somehow we ended up going to an important party where the boyfriend didn't come. That night I thought I would tell her how I felt but who was to know that I boy that I had never met had the same idea and confessed to her first than me. What happened next?? Well first off, I ended up not saying anything to her that night. But what happened the week after made me sick. She broke up with her boyfriend of two years and started dating this other boy. What the fuck?? Why was I so shy about not confessing first?? Maybe I could have been that other boy but instead I found myself in a spot where I didnt wanted to speak to her again. I still remember listening to Fight Test by Flaming Lips. LOL. Not her fault, though. I guess I was just afraid that if she rejected me she would stop being my friend.

prudent: careful in providing for the future; provident

In college I liked this girl that I never told her how I felt. How did it all ended?? She fucked my best friend. What did i do about him?? Nothing, I stopped talking to him.

prudent: more prudent to hide than to fight

There was this other girl who I also had a crush on. We hung out for like four months. She is a very shy girl who had never had a bf. What did I do to make her my gf?? Nothing. Years later we had a drunk conversation where she confessed to me that she had the biggest crush on me but I never made a move. Her answer to my shyness, fear and prudence of not asking her out was that I was probably gay.

prudence: caution with regard to practical matters; discretion.


Or last week when I was in this room where lots of strange things were happening. Things that I had never seen in person. And I was with this girl who I barely know, but knowing that two of my closest female friends would come. We all wanted to see these "things" but when I actually found myself there I just panicked thinking that my two female friends were about to come in and see me seeing these things with them. I felt so uncomfortable and thought it would be imprudent for me to be there. So I left, they stayed there for like 30 mins. Of course, I regretted this later and when I tried to come back I wasnt allowed to.


Anyways, why am I telling you this?? I been listening to this song that may describe more than one episode of my life.

OK, this pretty much sums up the story of my life. So here are the lyrics to the song:

Girl Afraid

Girl afraid
Where do his intentions lay ?
Or does he even have any ?

She says :

He never really looks at me
I give him every opportunity
In the room downstairs
He sat and stared
In the room downstairs
He sat and stared
Ill never make that mistake again !

Ill never make that mistake again
Ill never make that mistake again

Boy afraid
Prudence never pays
And everything she wants costs money

But she doesnt even like me !
And I know because she said so
In the room downstairs
She sat and stared
In the room downstairs
She sat and stared
Ill never make that mistake again !


And just for the record, people may think that being prudent is a good thing. But the truth is that it has only stopped me from doing the things in life that I wanted to do. So, it may not always be a good trait. And why lie, my definition of prudence might as well be translated to fear.


Lataz,
Boy Afraid

P.S. YES!!! Morrissey with flowers in his back pocket.

Oscars Night

I will probably be watching this tonight. Unlike the Grammys, I believe in the Oscars and the integrity of the Academy. I actually believe that they get it right most of the time. The Grammys are a joke, for realz. Anyways, Im bored so I am going to predict the awards. I got almost all right on the Golden Globes (75%) but this are the Oscars. Quite different. Not.

Anyways, here are my predictions for tonight. Curious Case or Slumdog???? I dont know... fuck it... Slumdog

Best picture
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button"
"Frost/Nixon"
"Milk"
"The Reader"
"Slumdog Millionaire" right

Actor
Richard Jenkins, "The Visitor"
Frank Langella, "Frost/Nixon"
Sean Penn, "Milk" right
Brad Pitt, "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button"
Mickey Rourke, "The Wrestler"

Actress
Anne Hathaway, "Rachel Getting Married"
Angelina Jolie, "Changeling"
Melissa Leo, "Frozen River"
Meryl Streep, "Doubt"
Kate Winslet, "The Reader" right

Supporting actor
Josh Brolin, "Milk"
Robert Downey Jr., "Tropic Thunder"
Philip Seymour Hoffman, "Doubt"
Heath Ledger, "The Dark Knight" right
Michael Shannon, "Revolutionary Road"

Supporting actress
Amy Adams, "Doubt"
Penelope Cruz, "Vicky Cristina Barcelona" right
Viola Davis, "Doubt"
Taraji P. Henson, "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button"
Marisa Tomei, "The Wrestler"

Director
Danny Boyle, "Slumdog Millionaire" right
Stephen Daldry, "The Reader"
David Fincher, "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button"
Ron Howard, "Frost/Nixon"
Gus Van Sant, "Milk"

Animated feature
"Bolt"
"Kung Fu Panda"
"WALL-E" right

Adapted screenplay
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," screenplay by Eric Roth, screen story by Eric Roth and Robin Swicord
"Doubt," written by John Patrick Shanley
"Frost/Nixon," screenplay by Peter Morgan
"The Reader," screenplay by David Hare
"Slumdog Millionaire," screenplay by Simon Beaufoy

Original screenplay
"Frozen River," written by Courtney Hunt
"Happy-Go-Lucky," written by Mike Leigh
"In Bruges," written by Martin McDonagh
"Milk," written by Dustin Lance Black right
"WALL-E," screenplay by Andrew Stanton, Jim Reardon; original story by Andrew Stanton, Pete Docter

Art direction
"Changeling," James J. Murakami; set decoration: Gary Fettis
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," Donald Graham Burt; set decoration: Victor J. Zolfo right
"The Dark Knight," Nathan Crowley; set decoration: Peter Lando
"The Duchess," Michael Carlin; set decoration: Rebecca Alleway
"Revolutionary Road," Kristi Zea; set decoration: Debra Schutt

Cinematography
"Changeling," Tom Stern
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," Claudio Miranda
"The Dark Knight," Wally Pfister
"The Reader," Chris Menges and Roger Deakins
"Slumdog Millionaire," Anthony Dod Mantle right

Costume design
"Australia," Catherine Martin
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," Jacqueline West
"The Duchess," Michael O'Connor
"Milk," Danny Glicker
"Revolutionary Road," Albert Wolsky

Documentary feature
"The Betrayal (Nerakhoon)"
"Encounters at the End of the World"
"The Garden"
"Man on Wire" right
"Trouble the Water"

Film editing
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," Kirk Baxter and Angus Wall
"The Dark Knight," Lee Smith
"Frost/Nixon," Mike Hill and Dan Hanley
"Milk," Elliot Graham
"Slumdog Millionaire," Chris Dickens right

Foreign language film
"The Baader Meinhof Complex," Germany
"The Class," France
"Departures," Japan
"Revanche," Austria
"Waltz with Bashir," Israel

Makeup
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," Greg Cannom right
"The Dark Knight," John Caglione Jr. and Conor O'Sullivan
"Hellboy II: The Golden Army," Mike Elizalde and Thom Floutz

Original score
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," Alexandre Desplat
"Defiance," James Newton Howard
"Milk," Danny Elfman
"Slumdog Millionaire," A.R. Rahman right
"WALL-E," Thomas Newman

Original song
"Down to Earth" from "WALL-E," music by Peter Gabriel and Thomas Newman, lyrics by Peter Gabriel
"Jai Ho" from "Slumdog Millionaire," music by A.R. Rahman, lyrics by Gulzar right
"O Saya" from "Slumdog Millionaire," music and lyrics by A.R. Rahman and Maya Arulpragasam

Sound editing
"The Dark Knight," Richard King right
"Iron Man," Frank Eulner and Christopher Boyes
"Slumdog Millionaire," Glenn Freemantle and Tom Sayers
"WALL-E," Ben Burtt and Matthew Wood
"Wanted," Wylie Stateman

Sound mixing
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," David Parker, Michael Semanick, Ren Klyce and Mark Weingarten
"The Dark Knight," Lora Hirschberg, Gary Rizzo and Ed Novick
"Slumdog Millionaire," Ian Tapp, Richard Pryke and Resul Pookutty
"WALL-E," Tom Myers, Michael Semanick and Ben Burtt
"Wanted," Chris Jenkins, Frank A. Montaño and Petr Forejt

Visual effects
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," Eric Barba, Steve Preeg, Burt Dalton and Craig Barron
"The Dark Knight," Nick Davis, Chris Corbould, Tim Webber and Paul Franklin
"Iron Man," John Nelson, Ben Snow, Dan Sudick and Shane Mahan



I actually think that it will be the night of Benjamin Button but my heart is with Slumdog.



Toughest decision= Film Editing


16 of 21. Not bad.




Rockin the house,
Dread Romeo


(Paul Weller is my hero!!)


""IIIIIIIIm wasting my time with YOU!!! My baby BABY bluuuuuuuuuuuuue."- The Warlocks

My One Month Early What I Want To See Live @SXSW List

Since the moment I saw the first SXSW I started doing my homework since I really have nothing else to do. So I racked up a good number of bands that Ive enjoyed. So here they are, if you wanna check em out thats cool but my final list will be due a few days before SXSW begins. Im gonna leave The Vaselines, The Raveonettes, and The Courteeners but they have been taken off the original list, so sad, im crossing my fingers in hope that they will pop back up somehow.

Akron/Family (Williamsport, PA)
Asobi Seksu (Brooklyn, NY)
Ben Kweller (Austin, TX)
Chris T-T (Brighton, ENGLAND)
Crystal Stilts (New York, NY)
Dananananaykroyd (Glasgow, Scotland)
Eli Paperboy Reed & the True Loves (Boston MA)
Explosions in the Sky (Austin, TX)
Future of the Left (Cardiff, WALES)
Hatcham Social (London UK-ENGLAND)
Port O'Brien (Cambria, CA)
Primal Scream (Glasgow, Scotland)
The Sonics (Seattle, WA)
Thee Oh See's (San Francisco, CA)

Aqualung (London UK-ENGLAND)
Melissa Auf der Maur (Montreal QC)
Bang! Bang! Eche! (Christchurch NEW ZEALAND)
Bearsuit (Norwich UK-ENGLAND)
Chris Bell (Austin TX)
Ben Harper & RELENTLESS7 (Los Angeles CA)
The Black Angels (Austin TX)
Black Lips (Atlanta GA)
The Brunettes (Auckland NEW ZEALAND)
Cashier No.9 (Belfast UK-N. IRELAND)
Connan Mockasin (London NEW ZEALAND)
The Courteeners (Manchester UK-ENGLAND)
Cut Off Your Hands (Auckland NEW ZEALAND)
Danny And The Champions Of The World (London UK-ENGLAND)
The Decemberists (Portland OR)
The Drones (Melbourne VIC)
Echo and The Bunnymen (Liverpool UK-ENGLAND)
Gomez (Brighton UK-ENGLAND)
Tim Finn (Auckland NEW ZEALAND)
Rodney Fisher (New Plymouth NEW ZEALAND)
Adam Franklin (of Swervedriver) (New York NY)
Glasvegas (Glasgow, SCOTLAND)
The Grates (Brisbane QLD)
Grant Hart (South Saint Paul MN)
Hatcham Social (London UK-ENGLAND)
Hey Negrita (London UK-ENGLAND)
Lady Sovereign (London UK-ENGLAND)
I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness (Austin TX)
The Laughing (Austin TX)
Longview (London UK-ENGLAND)
The Lovetones (Sydney NSW)
Ian McLagan & the Bump Band (Austin TX)
New York Dolls (New York NY)
The Pains of Being Pure at Heart (New York NY)
Patty Hurst Shifter (Raleigh NC)
Peter Bjorn and John (Stockholm SWEDEN)
Kate Perry (CALIFORNIA)-----call me a pervert but im gonna take soOOOOoo000ooo00oOo many pics of her!!
The Proclaimers (Edinburgh UK-SCOTLAND)
The Raveonettes (New York NY)
Razorlight (London UK-ENGLAND)
The Reaction (San Francisco CA)
Red Red Meat (Chicago IL)
Red Riders (Sydney NSW)
Eli Paperboy Reed & the True Loves (Boston MA)
Scribe (Christchurch NEW ZEALAND)
Samantha Shelton (Los Angeles CA)
Soko (Paris NY)
Starsailor (Wigan UK-ENGLAND)
The Thermals (Portland OR)
Third Eye Blind (San Francisco CA) LOL
Those Dancing Days (Stockholm SWEDEN)
The Tutts (Auckland NEW ZEALAND)
The Vaselines (Glasgow UK-SCOTLAND)
M Ward (Portland OR)
The Warlocks (Los Angeles CA)
White Lies (London UK- ENGLAND)
Youth Group (Newtown NSW)


best name EVER!!!
Huevo Atomico (Bogota COLOMBIA)

Briana's MUST see band:
The Homopolice (Houston TX) LOL

Ricky WANTS to join this band:
The Greencards (Austin TX)

My band:
El Jesus de Magico (Columbus OH)



i may be missing some bands but ah well

El Tax Payer

(listening to Ryan Adams)

p.s. im obsessing over Ocean Colour Scene at the time

"I still don't know what I was waiting for A big love to fall down from the sky She took my hand and picked me up off the floor She put an apple in my eye."- Oasis

Sorry....

Really??? Way overused my friends. Way too fucking overused. People bombard me with this word throughout the day. It really bothers me soooo much.

I mean, Im walking down the hall and this gorgeous girl rubs her breasts on my back and she says, "Im sorry." Really, do you think it bothers me?? You should be telling me, "You're welcome." Not Im Sorry. Really!!

Or the other day I was sitting by a round table with friends and one of my female friends touched the tip of my foot with her foot and what does she say, "Oh, sorry!!" Really?? Who do you think you are Samson?? It DIDNT hurt!! I promise. Why dont you just yell, "Awkward!!" or "I promise I wasnt trying to hit on you, it was a total accident." I know youre trying to save yourself a whole explanation about why tapping your foot against mine is an accident but just say it like it is. You will save me from getting all pissed off at you.

When I invite my friends to go out. Downtown or whatever, I normally send them a text message saying, "Dtown??" When they can't come do you know what they say?? "Can't go, sorry." Really?? Are you saying that I should I be sad that you won't be coming out?? I should be sorry that YOU are not coming out because I will have a very enjoyable time with our closest friends, meeting people and doing the crazy things that we do. So why would YOU say you're sorry to me because YOU can't come out?? ah ah?? tell me ... why?? lol

At least they don't say, "Sorry buddy." Because if you call me buddy I will PUNCH you in the nose next time I see you. The only time you are aloud to say the word buddy to me is when you tell me that I'm on your buddy list or or when you are wondering if you are in my buddy list. So please. dont call me buddy. I dont like that. Or the second time I see you, you will have a black eye. You can call me "man" I like that, it makes me feel like a man. Or friend, call me friend. Makes me feel important. But buddy?? Im not your 5 year old buddy. But don't worry if youve call me buddy before and you didnt know I hate the word, but now that you know, you better not call me that.

Anyways, back to the main subject. It bothers me when the girls talk between them and I just happen to hear this, or on MTV or whenever you hear girls talking between them and they tell each other that the word LOVE is overused. Really?? Is it really overused?? I mean, (in a girly voice), "Oh my God, (blank name) told me I love you and I just don't know what that means. Does he really love me or is he just trying to get in my pants? Oh gosh, that word is so overused." For real??? You know what word is really overused I'm Sorry. Sorry I banged your best friend. Sorry I couldn't make it to your show. Sorry Im so stupid I didnt know what I was doing. Dont you rather hear the I love you than the Im sorry?? Oh and let me give you a recommendation. Next time you break up with someone, right at the end of everything when you know everything is done and lost. And he/she is walking away dont yell "I'm sorry!!" Please dont do that!!! PLEASE!!! You know what you should say??? "I love you!!" I know it will send a very wrong message but you know what?? He/She will feel so much better later, I promise. Maybe a little confuse. But much better than if you had said "I'm sorry!!" So dont say youre sorry. I beg you.

"I don't think I love you, I'm sorry." WRONG
"I don't think I love you, love you." WAY BETTER!! confusing but better.

Anyways. I'm not trying to say that you can never say I'm Sorry but really think when you use it and don't overuse it. It bothers people like me.

Kudos,
Dr. So-Ree-Uz


P.S. Yes. Im a bit of a hypocrite 'cause I use it too so IM SORRY about that. And yes, I do lots of things that bother others so BRING IT ON.


(While watching Superbad)

"My name is McLovin chicka chika yea yea!!"- McLovin

USA vs Mexico "The Cold War"

You know what I can't get out of my head? This game!! It is not just another friendly game. This one actually counts. The hexagonal starts tomorrow and both teams have been unlucky to play each other for the first game in this round robin qualifier game. Let me explain how big this game is. There are six teams who play each other home and away for a total of ten matches. The top three teams make it to the World Cup and the fourth place plays vs 5th ranked team in South America. And yes, its almost likely that USA and Mexico will go through but you have to understand the magnitude of the game and the importance and confidence that brings the teams to beat each other.

For the first time in a VERY long time USA is favorite. We might have to go back to the 1930s when it was seen like this. The fact is this, USA has dictated a hegemony over the Mexican team. I mean, we've only beaten USA twice this decade and both victories came on a Sunday afternoon under the smog and altitude of Mexico City. Mexico hasnt beaten USA in American soil during a qualifier match since the 1970s. Fuck me

Anyways, heres my prediction and my reasons.

USA 2-0 Mexico

- Mexico wont be playing 5 of their starters due to injuries or suspensions.
-Magallon: injury, scored both goals last time both teams played each other on a 2-2 game
- Arce: suspension, easily replaceable but will need his crosses
-Guardado: injury, maybe the best player in the national team wont be playing. This is the guy who creates opportunities when the team is playing like shit.
-Torrado: suspension, our best mid defensive player. This means that Marquez will have to cover two spots. The back and the middle of the field.
-Vela: suspension. Really?? Fourth forward of the mighty powerful Arsenal of England wont be playing cause of a stupid STUPID foul he committed on the last game vs Honduras.

-The weather. Too cold for the Mexicans. But then again, I dont think the American players will be playing with any extra layers.

-USA soil. Last two games played in Columbus: 2001 USA2-0Mexico; 2005 USA2-0Mexico.

-Mexico has been playing like SHIT!!! Last five matches: 4 loses 1 win. Lost to Jamaica@Jamaica, Honduras@Honduras, Canada@Canada, Sweden@USA and victory against Ecuador @ USA.


Hope my team wins but I highly doubted. Wow im tired and I cant write but I just had to write this before tomorrow.

Viva Mexico Cabrones!!

Dr Mighty Patriot

P.S. Oh yea... why "The Cold War"??? Cause its going to be fuckin cold... i hear

(Listening to The Smiths)

"I was looking for a job and then I found a job and heaven knows im miserable now"- The Smiths

12 Years Ago Today

Twelve years ago this very day February 10th I moved to Austin, Texas from Tampico, Mexico. Maybe the toughest two years of my life began that afternoon. Moving to Austin was a very harsh change in my life. Even though I knew English, I hadn't perfected it (not that I have yet). I actually barely knew English back then, I remember being at the classroom and not talking to anyone, I would sit the farthest away from anyone who would want to speak to me. I also remember sitting on the lunch table with the "cool" guys (who had surprisingly taken me under their arm, I guess they saw my potential...lol) and not saying a single word because I was so afraid of them and of this new culture. I just couldnt get my friends and my life from Mexico out of my head. I would cry at nights and was miserable throughout the week with nothing to look forward to.

Well let me explain what I was going through before I moved to Austin. I was twelve years old but that in Mexico is like 14 years old in Austin, or at least where I grew up, Westlake. I'm saying this because when I was twelve I was already going to parties where the boys and the girls would dress up and try to make out, and Im not saying this doesnt happen in USA at that age but you have to understand, we were already driving cars, drinking alcohol, bringing girls back home and hanging out with the 18 year olds and we were just twelve!!! I used to believe that I was a grown up and my friends were going to be the people I would see often for the rest of my lives... I was going through all that before I moved to Austin. And what happens when I move to Austin??? I have no friends, except maybe my brother. My mom and dad would work all day, something that they hadnt done all my life. I used to ride the bus for over 90 minutes just to get to school because I used to live in an area where the schools were shit (Stassney and Pleasant Valley) and my mom wanted me to go to Hill Country which is the middle school in Westlake. So where in Mexico I was the king of the world, in Austin I was pretty much nobody and it really was hard. Oh did I mentioned that I was totally in love with this one girl that winter that I moved to Austin. I used to have all these dreams about her when I had already moved to Austin. haha.

Hahaha... i just remembered something about the night my dad told us that we were moving to Austin. We all gathered at my parents bedroom and the lights were off and my dad had been alone for a while, now that I think about it he had been crying and was having a very hard time thinking of how he was going to tell his 9 and 12 year old kids that we were going to move to Austin. But anyways, my mom was quiet next to me and my dad started speaking about the economy (no shit!! the economy... 12 years ago here we are talking about the economy but in a different country) and how bad his business was going and he finally blurred it out, "We are moving to Austin as soon as we can." And here is the funny thing, you know what my brother said?!?! You know what he fuckin said?!?! "Oh yes!! This has been the dream of my life!" Hahaha!! Can you believe it?!? Ah 9 year old twat!!! I was fuming!! Fuckin furious!! And he starts telling us about how it has been the dream of his life!! hahaha. Oh Ricky, how much I love that kid. But anyways, that was that. Rickys dream at 9 was my worst nightmare at 12.

Back to life when I had just moved to Austin. On August (six months after stepping foot in Austin) of 1997 I met my best friend of all my life. Kurt moved from Guadalajara, Mexico that very summer. I think we met the very first week of school but it might had been the second. We were in PE and the whole class was playing basketball and there were two kids who just couldnt play the game and that was Kurt and me. Afterwards, Kurt walked up to me and asked me if I was from Mexico. I said, "YES!! How did you know??" And he replied in Spanish, "I was looking at you as you played basketball and you suck!!" So Kurt and I became best friends that very day and we have been since. I guess it is because we went through the same change and harsh times and used each others company to make it to the end. And we really didnt have anybody else in school. I still remember being afraid of him missing school because that meant that I would be alone for the school day.

I also grew up and matured at a very young age. My parents couldnt speak English and you know who would call the phone companies?? the apartment complex?? the insurance company?? the cable?? the electricity?? ME. I became the best translator I knew back then. Through that I found out all about my parents financial problems and I would worry about it all the time. Ah man, it was hard. I was just twelve years old. And I was already worrying about money. What the fuck??

On new years eve of 1997 I told my dad as we drove alone to my aunts place, "This has been the worst year of my life." My dad broke down in tears in front of me right there. I felt good about it, I wanted to make him feel bad about bringing me into this shitty life. I really was selfish, I just wouldnt see the big picture. All the sacrifice that they were also making, everything that they gave up for my brother and my future. I really was an idiot back then, but the truth is that I really was a good kid and I payed them back that way. Big soccer star, staying off drugs and alcohol, hanging out with the good kids, or must I say good kid because from Feb 10th 2007 to September of 2008 I only had one friend and that was Kurt. I owe my dad, my mom, my brother, Kurt and his family all the support that they brought me through those harsh years of my life. The thing is, it wasnt just me, they were going through harsh times as well and I think thats why we coped so well.

Twelve years later I see my life and I am happy about it all. I did learn a lot at a very young age and that helped me mature very quickly as a person. I do have amazing friends right now and I finished college, something that at one point in my life might had been impossible. I truly believe I would had been a shit person if I hadnt moved to Austin, I truly believe that.

God bless America.... and Mexico

Sir Apple Biter

P.S. Sorry about the rambling and out of order scenario but I dont feel like editing.


(Listening to The Smiths)

"Ive seen this happen in other people's lives and now its happening in mine." - The Smiths